While these Jeans appear to just be Jeans, they are in fact Resolve, they are my going with the flow and accepting the things I cannot change. They are also the first Jean, or Pant? …
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Good Jeans
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THE SNOO
Long ago, women squatted in fields and pushed out their babies, cut their own umbilical cords with rocks, shushed and soothed their own babies in the middle of the night through storms or I guess …
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DREAM TRAINING
Lately my dreams seem to be prepping me for the fourth trimester, dropping me into odd moments where I’m exhausted and screaming to the point of tears. The other night, Julien and I were traveling …
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BUTT TRUTH
I just caught a glimpse of the actual size of my butt in a mirror, like an actual mirror, not a mirror in which I control my image of myself, and it cast great doubt …
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The Moment
You would think after years of fertility drama, and all of the time and words I’ve spent bitching about it here, I would be chomping at the bit to make public our joyous news that …
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Life.
Pro tip: while attempting to create life, spend any leftover emotional space and money on plants, as they are Life, but not People. Marvel at their designs. Obsess over their watering instructions. IF ANYTHING HAPPENS …
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Outside In
I am a quivering ball of wrath and vulnerability these days, BUT AT LEAST THAT BALL IS DRESSING HERSELF LIKE THE INFERTILITY BARBIE THAT NO ONE BOUGHT, with carefully selected outfits to distract myself. Roll …
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Even the Cows
Beaver County, Oklahoma. The owner of a beautiful cattle ranch drives me around, showing me the ropes, literally ropes and prairie dogs and fences and SO MANY BEAUTIFUL COWS. We come upon the first part …
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COMEDY, EVERYWHERE
Nothing is without humor. Nothing ever. You can always find it. People say the wrong things at funerals, joke about their cancer. Infertility can be, and should, hilarious. While you wait for your doctor, look …
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Our baby lives in the Future
Years ago I was hired to write a feature adaptation of The Secret, which means I’ve gotten to know and work with Rhonda Byrne, the kind and remarkable woman who wrote the book and lives …