Since it became abundantly clear that the Pandemic was not going anywhere anytime soon, Hollyweird decided they would send the concept of the Movie Premiere to the viewer’s home, by providing secret viewing links and …
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Pandemic Premiere
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A NEW DAY
A companion piece to my previous blogpost: Things that we feel we could accomplish now that we have experienced not one but two CONSECUTIVE decent night’s sleeps, or at least with very minimal wakings from …
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I love you
Sharing this very absurd very narcissistic feeling here in this very safe very public space: sometimes I catch myself worrying that my son doesn’t love me. Or I think, what do I need to do …
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I resolve
Morrison took these pictures of me after our New Year’s eve dinner the other night. YES, we got dressed up to go downstairs and play board games over Zoom because Joe had just pooped on …
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New Rock Bottom
Our Zoom baby class teacher told us that once we had Joe, once he came out ready to party at 4 AM, we would discover what she called a New Rock Bottom. Like, whereas before …
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ears peeled
Ever since Joe’s arrival, my hearing is sharper. It’s like some cotton from one of my many childhood ear infections was left inside and when I gave birth it was spotted, taken out, and suddenly, …
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not lost on me
October is national pregnancy and infant loss awareness month, and it’s not lost on me that this time last year, we’d just had our second failed IVF transfer and I screamed in a parking lot …
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dishwasher v. boy
I’ve always been in love with Time, or at least I’ve perceived it as Love, but it’s Control: I own it, and it does what I want. Each second is a something that can be …
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Life doesn’t frighten me
Behind my left ear lives a tiny imaginary reporter from the New York Times who’s doing a profile on me. WHAT, DO YOU NOT HAVE THAT? Each morning they ask: Say, Bekah, what do you …
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screaming awake
I’m still getting used to New Sleep, in which you never quite sleep, but are always listening for the sound of your baby crying, or moving, or thinking, or anything-ing. You float above sleep, but …