October is national pregnancy and infant loss awareness month, and it’s not lost on me that this time last year, we’d just had our second failed IVF transfer and I screamed in a parking lot …
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not lost on me
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Parent Words
One day you’re an adult with a master’s degree, you live in a house that you bought and you read Op-eds and take calls from your Lawyer, and the next day you’re a Parent and …
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dishwasher v. boy
I’ve always been in love with Time, or at least I’ve perceived it as Love, but it’s Control: I own it, and it does what I want. Each second is a something that can be …
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Life doesn’t frighten me
Behind my left ear lives a tiny imaginary reporter from the New York Times who’s doing a profile on me. WHAT, DO YOU NOT HAVE THAT? Each morning they ask: Say, Bekah, what do you …
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A Blessing
I am VERY LUCKY that I have a husband that wants to and is able to be an equal participant in raising (ie: desperately, moment to moment, trying to understand and the keeping alive of) …
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A MAN.
Today, on feelings I did not anticipate: I have a crush on my son. Like before bed I lie awake looking at pictures of him, he gives me butterflies, I miss him when he’s in …
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tummy time, or: this, forever
Like a month ago when I was a different human, I swore to myself that once Joe was born, I would not let this space become solely about babies. I would strike a balance between …
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Dad Brain, Forever
ATTN ALL: THIS MAN IS AMAZING (the big one, tho please note, the smaller version has also been proving himself to be pretty great.) The hospital was a blur, there were green beans? We cried, …
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Love on the Spectrum
Very early on in the first episode of this new Netflix show, Michael (25, Aspergers, completely amazing in every way) declares to the camera that all he wants in the world is to be a …
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if you can’t take the heat
California is in an intense heat wave right now, resulting in power blackouts and featuring something called ‘fire tornadoes,’ so this morning when I read that the County was requesting LA residents to turn reduce …