Today, on the inner workings of my desperate attempts to Get my Brain and Health back:

JUST GONNA START CASUALLY EATING BEE POLLEN. YEP JUST GONNA POP THAT BEE SALIVA AND THE STUFF THAT FORMS ON BEES, SO I GUESS BEE SKIN, JUST GONNA PUT IT RIGHT IN MY MOUTH AND HOPE THAT IT GOES TO MY STOMACH, TURNS INTO ACTUAL BEES, AND THAT THOSE BEES FORM AN ARMY THAT SWARM AND TRAVEL UP MY THROAT AND FIGHT THE HOT ANGRY BEES IN MY HEAD TO THE DEATH. THIS IS HOW BEE POLLEN WORKS RIGHT? RIGHT? IF YOU NEED ME I’LL BE IN THE CORNER, SWALLOWING KNIVES