In case you haven’t clocked  ALL OF MY ALL CAPS AS OF LATE,   I HAVE BEEN FEELING AN ONSLAUGHT OF SUDDEN AND INCREASING ANXIETY WHICH IS BEST EXPRESSED VIA RUN ON SENTENCES IN ALL CAPS. I decided to person up and go and talk to someone about it,  instead of just continuing to freak out that I’m not reading enough / doing enough / that I don’t manage my money well enough / that the glaciers are melting / that I have a tumor / mediocrity / WHERE ARE MY REVISED W2’s / SKITTLES?

Even after one sit down, I feel better. It was just good to talk and sort of unpack my worry and how ridiculous most of it is, just by naming each worry outloud. This nice someone, let’s call her ‘therapist’ or ‘angel sent by God’ pointed out that I have a lot of past anxiety — worry that I didn’t do things right, and future anxiety — worry that things won’t work out or fall apart — but am presently, currently pretty okay. I really need to remember that. Right now, I am okay. I just need to rest here, and also, just accept that worry is just part of being a person. OKAY SO NOW I WILL JUST FIND TIME TO ACCEPT THAT AND  AND THEN I WILL ALL CAPS!