Bekahbrunstetter

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tense

Posted by Bekahbrunstetter on October 7, 2020

Yesterday while probably only halfway wearing pants, trying to justify my frustration with him the previous day, I explained to Morrison I was just having a bad day tomorrow! So basically it was probably a …

ha, i am lucky, MAWWAGE., Uncategorized, words

not lost on me

Posted by Bekahbrunstetter on October 5, 2020

October is national pregnancy and infant loss awareness month, and it’s not lost on me that this time last year, we’d just had our second failed IVF transfer and I screamed in a parking lot …

how interesting, i am a grown up, i am lucky, life, MAWWAGE., memories, my boy, my boy

you had to be there

Posted by Bekahbrunstetter on October 3, 2020October 3, 2020

Today, on how Babies are like Sunsets: pictures don’t capture them. You see the sunset, it’s striking, you scramble for your phone, take a picture, then look at the picture you took, and something magic …

a lot, babies, hmmmmm, i am lucky, my boy, the future, tout, words

non-nutritive sucking

Posted by Bekahbrunstetter on October 1, 2020October 1, 2020

I have officially acquired a Master’s Degree in Lactation from the University of Google And that one Lactation Consultant I think I met in the Hospital, or what she a Dream? It’s an incredibly easy …

a lot, sucking, the making of babies, the whole world, whining, women, YAY

Parent Words

Posted by Bekahbrunstetter on September 29, 2020

One day you’re an adult with a master’s degree, you live in a house that you bought and you read Op-eds and take calls from your Lawyer, and the next day you’re a Parent and …

a lot, family, how interesting, i am lucky, MAWWAGE., words, YAY

dishwasher v. boy

Posted by Bekahbrunstetter on September 27, 2020September 27, 2020

I’ve always been in love with Time, or at least I’ve perceived it as Love, but it’s Control: I own it, and it does what I want. Each second is a something that can be …

generally, ha, hmmmmm, how interesting, i am a grown up, i am lucky, my boy

Life doesn’t frighten me

Posted by Bekahbrunstetter on September 25, 2020September 25, 2020

Behind my left ear lives a tiny imaginary reporter from the New York Times who’s doing a profile on me. WHAT, DO YOU NOT HAVE THAT? Each morning they ask: Say, Bekah, what do you …

a lot, how interesting, i am a grown up, i am scared, i have peace, life, narcissism

the worry spot

Posted by Bekahbrunstetter on September 23, 2020September 23, 2020

Joe, in 15 or so years: Mom? What is this weird spot on my chest? Me: Where? Joe: right here, over my heart? It’s this weird like, indented spot. Is it like my birthmark, or …

a lot, my boy, worrying, YAY

the Baby Gym

Posted by Bekahbrunstetter on September 21, 2020

There are things called baby gyms that you put your baby underneath to stimulate their brains, and if you DON’T then your baby will grow up to be a murderer or at least have little …

a lot, boys, ha, hmmmmm, my boy, things that I Have, worrying, YAY

screaming awake

Posted by Bekahbrunstetter on September 19, 2020

I’m still getting used to New Sleep, in which you never quite sleep, but are always listening for the sound of your baby crying, or moving, or thinking, or anything-ing. You float above sleep, but …

a lot, i am a grown up, i am scared, LA angst, life, my boy