Julien and Elizabeth styled this picture of me during our birthday weekend in Joshua Tree, like they told me where to look and where to put my legs and where to put the Hat (not on the head! twist) and it might be the last picture of myself I’ll ever need, forever. Going forward if any asks me how, or what, I’m doing, my answer will be this picture. If anyone asks how I’m enjoying my 40’s, if I regret any life choices, this picture. Do I have peace with the fact that I’ve still gained a ton of weight after quitting smoking, rounds of IVF, and just generally eating bread whenever possible? This much peace, and note, in this picture, I’d just had literal cake for breakfast. Do I still feel like Myself, as a Mother? This picture.
