The only bigger feeling than the frustration you feel when your baby low grade whines or what the British apparently call ‘mithers’ all night JUST loud enough to keep you from sleeping is THE WORRY AND PANIC YOU FEEL WHEN THEY DO NOT MAKE ANY SOUND AT ALL, and their silence stabs you awake, and you wonder why they are Not frustrating you, are they okay? All of which just confirms my biggest Mother Feeling, which is that there is no Rest, only Big Worry, Big Joy.