I’ve been thinking a lot about how much time and emotional energy white people should be giving to guilt right now, and how much to action. Is the guilt a part of the action? Is it meant to be? How do you move on from guilt, TO action? For me, guilt is a VERY ACCESSIBLE EMOTION, moreso than say, peace, or happiness. Like: I live there already. And so I’ve spent a lot of time the last few weeks beating myself up for things I said or didn’t say in the past, did or did not do. But Black people can’t do anything with my guilt. And isn’t my guilt not only unproductive, but also insulting, in a way? And isn’t my guilt about ME? But also — how do we acknowledge that we were complicit WITHOUT guilt? And are we meant to acknowledge it over and over? Or just once, and then move on? And how do we SEPARATE the guilt from the action? I’m literally wasting time with this Spin. I think where I’ve landed, for now: What matters MORE than what we didn’t do then, is what we do going forward. Guilt can come too but it should stay quiet, like a coin in a pocket, so that the hands are free to hold the people that need to be held or lift them up BUT MAKE SURE YOU DON’T ACTUALLY TOUCH THEM (VIRUS)