If I were to name the color of the inside of my heart right now EXACTLY, it would be: Dark of Black, White of Optimism, Gray of the Middle, POLKA DOT ADORABLE TRYING
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NAILS OF MY SOUL
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Me, and how I’m Crazy
I’m taking a break through the holidays from worrying and obsessing about getting pregnant, or at least this is what I’m telling myself, if not shouting at myself. It mostly involves frantic compartmentalization, which makes …
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Bekah’s Book Club
At the urging of three separate friends, I started reading this INDEED VERY PAINFULLY BEAUTIFUL book, about the coming of age of a mysterious girl who lives in the Marsh on the North Carolina coast. …
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Further and Further Away
I don’t so much have Good dreams or Bad Dreams, I have Worry Dreams, with very simple plots that usually involve me trying to get somewhere important, pushing through sand and time to get there, …
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Say Goodbye to These, Michael
Sometimes you make a cake for a friend because she’s managed to stay alive X amount of years, and it’s the yearly commemoration of her birth, and sometimes you make her a cake because she’s …
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BOOK A CLOWN
I’m back in town, prepping and getting my head in the game for some upcoming IVF hullabaloo, which means blood draws and needle parties and Google panics and that I just bought 47 pounds of …
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Suffering Noisily
Yesterday, I had another surgery that’s hopefully getting us one step closer to having a tiny person running around our house demanding to know where Poop comes from. It was the longest I’d ever been …
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What I need to Hear
Yesterday, a Sunday morning: I wake up, feeling a need to go to church and be quiet and reflective and pray I Go to church Okay, yes, I get there a few minutes late, but …
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I talk, he listens, I don’t
I think I don’t even listen to myself when I talk. I’m just sort of whirring around the house, doing 900 things, thinking some things, saying some of them out loud, and Morrison takes the …
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Quick Check-in with World
When I’m developing a play or musical, I tend to stick my head up its butt and ignore the tense and divisive and sometimes horrible things happening in the world, which is both blessing and …